2. Feed Kids breakfast
3. Get something productive done today
5. Make lunch for the kids
When I lost my job, it was a devastating blow. But to my husband it was the end-of-the-world. My husband couldn't STAND that I wasn’t working. Our marriage has not been the same ever since... :'o( I started this blog to release my frustrations and hopefully by writing, I can find the silver lining. I never shared this with him OR with others- so if you're here, please respect my personal thoughts by not sharing them. Thank you.
This Mother Hubbard
Went to her Cubbard
To feed her poor kids some lunch
But When she got there
The Cubbard was bare
It's Grocery Time for this bunch!
Yet This Mother Hubbard
Clips coupons and saves
Shops frugally and still can't afford
The food that we need
With 8 mouths to feed
It's becoming too much of a chore
So this Mother Hubbard
Will find work of some other
At nights when her hubby is home
Then one day Mother Hubbard
Will buy milk, bread and butter
And perhaps buy the doggy a bone!
(They had a gal walk out yesterday so they are needing to shuffle some people around to cover the appropriate duties. They text me and asked me if I could come into work. Here is the email that I ALMOST sent them- but decided to talk to them instead (one-on-one.) Talking in person was the best idea for the situation, but I kept this email just in case I wanted to look back on it someday.)
Hi there,
I got your text message this morning, as well as Jade’s and Leslie’s email- my only issue is that it costs me too much to come into work.
If it made sense financially, I would jump to the opportunity- but after paying a sitter and filling up on gas at $3.45 a gallon- To work again for the same amount makes it very hard to come back. So even for a temporary offer, I simply can’t afford it.
If I come back for a short time and the bridge is open for a full time position, I feel HomeLovers might not ever find a position for me to grow into.
Perhaps it’s because I have not shown my ‘true’ value to the company, or maybe HomeLovers doesn’t have the budget to pay for quality employees themselves.
How can I ask for more money per hour without making it sound like I’m trying to be ‘better’ than anyone else?
I apologize if it sounds ugly, it wasn’t my intent.
Thank you so much for considering me anyway.
-Crystal
(so, I ended up going back to work today- even though I didn't arrive until 1:30, I worked until 5. They agreed to give me a temporary $2 an hour raise. This was so exciting to approach, ask and receive my wish!)
I've agreed to work until next Wednesday (the 22nd of June.) Jim isn't so crazy about the idea because 1. I'm not packin and cleanin all day like I 'should' be and 2. the gas is still expensive no matter HOW you cut it. Besides, at least we'll be makin a little bit of cash.
Here are his replies below. . .
From: Wells, Jim
Sent: Tuesday, June 14, 2011 10:58 AM
To: 'Crystal'
Subject: RE: I don't want to burn any bridges
Maybe you could also say until you move that it will just be to costly and that move should be done before the end of July.
From: Crystal
Sent: Tuesday, June 14, 2011 11:00 AM
To: Wells, Jim
Subject: RE: I don't want to burn any bridges
So you agree that I should NOT go into work today at all?
Or should I just ‘go’ and then tell them all this later?
From: Wells, Jim
Sent: Tuesday, June 14, 2011 11:10 AM
To: 'Crystal'
Subject: RE: I don't want to burn any bridges
I think it should be there choice along with yours
Ok, so here is my BIG accomplishment today.
I didn’t make a ‘list’ like I have done recently these last few days- I just told myself 3 simple rules
2. Do NOT pass go, do not collect $200.
a. No computer
b. No TV
c. No breakfast until I have completed the 1st thing on my to do list
3. Do NOT mismatch the challenge to the skill. Too much expectation on myself will only result in the feeling of failure if I do not reach my goal. And not ENOUGH challenge will only leave me feeling bored and unmotivated completely. To live in ‘the flow’ I need to do like Nike commercials say and “JUST DO IT”. If I wrote out a goal sheet for me today, I might feel like failed in some way- but when I just met my goals head on as I approached them it didn’t seem like such an uphill battle.
So- as a ‘reward’ to myself, I allowed to get on facebook. I know, I know, I’m addicted- but I made it a whole 24 hours and I’m VERY proud at all I was able to accomplish in that time frame. J yippee!
Anyhoo- that’s all for tonight- I will talk to you later gator!
I want to brag to you about my NEW GREAT IDEA!
I’m gonna write a book! Whether it be for me, or for other women around the world- I’m gonna have it be my new addiction (like facebook) and I’m honestly considering putting facebook on-hold for this short time.
The name of my book is going to be called “When I Grow up- I wanna-be a SAHM!”
Brilliant Right?
I’m gonna basically write each chapter as I go, following my own ‘tips’ for becoming a s.a.h.m. and reference back to the tips I’m learning from others (websites, books and my personal life coach JADE!)
It’s like a journal as I ‘grow up’ or rather ‘grow into the woman I want to become.' :o) What I like the most about it is that it can be my own 'practice what i preach' guide so that I can start thinking with CONFIDENCE, come from a place of KNOWING and PRACTICE success rather than of insecurity/fear/failure.
I’m so excited. This will help me tons (I FEEL) and can’t wait to write the 1st chapter! BYE!
-Crystal