So, I find myself being very frustrated... with everything really.
If you could slice my brain open, I could tell you what you'd find. I know all I'm doing is fishing for my 'calling'. I know I won't find it- not right now anyway. Especially with Jim's inapt to support me at ANYTHING I wanna do.
My calling is right around the corner tho, I can feel it. I saw this My Little Pony cartoon earlier today, they were talking about the little pony's 'cutie marks'. Each pony gets his or her cutie mark when they discover what is special about them. Until then, their flank is blank.
But there I was, 7 months pregnant and I was having my one and only girl. I should have been able to name her whatever I wanted... but Jim wanted to at least 'like' her name and we couldn't agree on one we both liked. Our solution, we came up with our own 'LIST' of names we each liked. We then thought, "Okay, once we're done with this list- we can compare lists and see if there is any name(s) that we BOTH had on our list." We then turned our 'cards' over and to our disappointment, we didn't have ANY name in common.
That's when Jim came up with Brooklyn Deelany. He thought the Delany name was cute but to add an extra E for my dad. (It was, and still is- the sweetest thing he has EVER done for me.)
Only problem is, I LOVED the name Brooklyn but HATED the name Delany. But I sat on it, and sat on it and came up with Brooklyn Deelana- with an A at the end. For some reason, it just sounded better to me. I couldn't figure out why.